Sleepless in Jenjarom

It's 1.40 a.m. on a Sunday night and I am wide awake to write this Blog. I believe that these contributing issues that bugs my brain too much and wake me up from my sleep:

1. It's too hot and I am sweating like hell
2. I texted my boss at noon and he didn't reply (which is kinda effed up!)
3. I dun have my phone right next to me to wake me up for sahur so I keep on thinking what time is it now.
4. Tomorrow is the day where I will start wearing hijab to work!!!!

Let me explain about the item number four:

A couple of months ago I started working for this particular company and since the first day working I stopped wearing Hijab. I have been wearing hijab ever since I have reached puberty, there are times when I am just too stupid and I will not wear it once in a while. Most of the time I will have my hijab on!

The reason I stopped wearing hijab because when I applied for a vacancy at this new company, my friend told me that her friend told her that "this particular company" will only hire good looking people for sales position. So on the day I went for the first interview I didn't wear my hijab and I put a lot of make-up on.

I got hired!

Well I think it's because of my brain because the scope of work that I applied is exactly the same as my last job. So after the second question "So tell me about your current company" which I ends up telling a little bit of the company's background and a lot of my scope of work, the interviewer (my current boss), he ends up did most of the talking because he liked my answer to his question a lot!

So, since I was not wearing hijab on the first interview, I continued not wearing any for the second one and I came to work on the first day not wearing one until today which is almost 4 months of working.

After working in this company for quite a while I have got to know a couple of friends and two of them who have seen me with my hijab on my facebook profile had urge me to put my hijab back on. I have promised the first one that I will put it on since the starting of Ramadhan, but unfortunately as the ramadhan begins I have lost the guts to put it back on. I think I am still new at this "thing" and I can't give up so easy!

Then, came this another friend who urges me to do the same. Well, even before he pops up the idea, I already had that plan to wear one on the last three days of working before I go on a long holiday. With his proposal, so, it was easier for me to get a firm decision to wear it.

Now, it's the night before the "big" day and I kind of having cold feet imagining on what people would say looking at me all baik2 wearing hijab....haish....

I think this the main contributing reason why I am up at this hour.......

Well I am going to force myself to sleep now......

Good night.....zzzzz.......

Dedicated to the person I heart the most!

I am not sure if the title of this post is a proper sentence :-P

Anyhow,

I am madly in love with this particular person! I really like spending time with her! I love talking to her. I can spend hours talking to her! We are like two sisters separated at birth. Unfortunately both of us have been busy with work and family matters. It has been almost a month since the last time we meet each other. The last time we spent together was when we spend the whole afternoon watching Nur Kasih and The Pirates of the Carribean back to back.

Last week something happened in her family and I was one of the first that she choose to share the news! I almost cried in front of my boss when I heard that news. I really wanted to be at her side at that moment but I have some constraints that I can't share here in public. Luckily she understands it although I haven't explain it to her.



Days before the incident happen, I had missed her so much that I spent time looking at each and every one of her profile pictures on facebook and commented on almost all of them. Today I find myself looking at some old pictures from her album during the time when we were in uni. I was so pathetic that I ends up reading her comments and laugh at it. Those comments are so funny that it reminds me how much I like her sense of humor!

I bet you would have guessed who is this post dedicated to...
It's for Siti Fatimah binti Jamaludin! I LOVE U! If there is a guy out there with the exact same character as u are I would definitely marry him !

New Place, same old story.

I haven't post anything straight from my heart for quite sometime. Maybe because I have lost m heart somewhere in the middle. Anyhow, here I am wanting to share a thing or two to the whole world.

Before I get the chance to share, I will have to admit a stupid decision that I made. I was thinking that by being in a new place I will get a whole new type of boss that will treat me differently.

Anyhow in terms of appreciation of my ability to work, the new boss has taken me to the next level. He allows me to go to site visits. Initially he didn't take me to meeting's, but I have grown wiser and express to him that I want to join with any of his meeting and I even refresh his memory that I have told him during the interview not to put me in the office and I want to go out more!




The rest, in terms of the approval of quotation by being very particular in every points, I think all bosses are the same. Maybe one day if I become the boss I'll be the same. The whole issue of a salesman chasing his target it's the same here with my boss except this time he is the one who introduce the company and came back with the inquiry. The issue will only arise during the time when he wants to get the deal. He just have his annoying way which when we get the hang of it it will be okay.

The only annoying thing about my boss is that he will say what ever he wants to say without taking into account of people's feeling. Well I just have to cope with that and pretend that I don't listen to any of those harsh words. Because of him I get to be where I am, even though I am a chemical engineer who is trying to sell some circuit breaker, he still accepts me and convince his boss to hire me.

He always praise for a good job well done. It's making me feel all warm inside and forget the hatred that I have towards him. There are times I thing that he is just throwing me with a whole loads of work I need to realize that he has even more work than I do.

Today, I have made my decision to stay "here" until I have enough experience and then I will leave once the time is right. He has initially mentioned that he wants me to be here just for three years and then I may leave as I wish.

I just want to share with everybody that no matter where you work. The environment will still be the same. But it depends on the amount of experience and the facilities that the company manage to provide will help you decide whether to stay or leave. For me, I think it's worth staying here and having to stand to this harsh environment because I will learn a lot of things and the status of the company will make my resume look nicer in the future.

"This is what my boss has repeatedly remind me and my friend except he changes the word funny to handsome" <--Seriously, I'm not joking!

A Great story..

Just shut up and read!

Tak lama dulu ada seorang Melayu yang ingin makan lauk ketam. Pada pagi tu dia pergilah ke pasar borong dan berjalan ke satu kedai milik Cina yang menjual ketam.

Melayu: Apek! Itu ketam ada jual ka?

Cina: Ada…ada…lu mau ketam Cina ka ketam Melayu?

Melayu: Aik! Ketam pun ada Melayu dengan Cina ka apek? Cuba lu tunjuk mana ketam Melayu, mana ketam Cina?

Cina: Itu sana dalam bekas ada tutup…ketam Cina.... sana dalam bekas tak ada tutup…ketam Melayu la….

Melayu: Apa pasal ketam Cina apek kasi tutup.... ketam Melayu apek tak kasi tutup?

Cina: Itu ketam Cina kalau satu ekor keluar.... ketam lain pun diajar macam mana boleh keluar dari bekas. Nanti lama-lama semua ketam pandai macam mana mau keluar dari bekas. Jadi semua keluar la.

Melayu: Ketam Melayu tak itu macam ka?

Cina: Ketam Melayu, kalau satu ekor keluar yang lain kasi tarik itu kaki ketam tadi… jangan kasi keluar. Dia mau dia sekor saja keluar…yang lain biar dalam bekas. Kalau dia sudah keluar, dia terus lari, tak mau ajar yang lain macam mana mau keluar.


Dr. Rozaini told me this story during Incineration class last year and suddenly it came to me! No matter who you are what century we are in, but Melayu tak mudah lupa because they will always be Melayu with the same characteristic for eternity..

p/s: nasib baik aku jawa tok tok~~~ lol~~

Knocking on my door~~~

Ola!

I haven't been posting a lot of blog lately. Any how i think my mating season has come again~~

Although it sound spooky hihi.. but I just can't get rid of my mating instinct. I think it has something to do with my hormone because lately I have been having my mood swing and a lot of zits on my face! darn~~~

So the story is about this guy I have been having a huge crush on! I don't do anything to get him at all because that is just not my style. I am the kind of person who would pay a visit to Mr Google and type "His" name in the box right in the middle of the page. In a lay man language I am more of a virtual stalker la~

The result scares me a lot! He is just the PERFECT GUY!!!

1. cool hobby -CHECK-

2. cute face -CHECK-

3. engineer -CHECK-

4. artistic -CHECK-

5. chubby -CHECK-

6. financially stable -CHECK-

7. single -CHECK-

the list can goes on and on with him complying every specification.

Based on my research he is the kind that can be specified as "Trying too hard" when he likes a certain girl. It's kinda scares me that it might be what he is lacking off.

To make things more interesting, I had a dream last night. It's not just about him but also about his behavior of being a trying too hard person. Here is what happen in my fantasy land~~

We were just at the beginning of our relationship and after only a couple of days together, he has brought me to meet his huge family. When I was at his parents house I felt accepted by his sisters and mother (not that I know anything about his family - it's just my fantasy after all). Both of us were very satisfied with the meeting and that day ends happily.

The next day, since I was still tired of the excitement of meeting his family the day before, I stayed at my home and do nothing. Then, all of a sudden, I received a text from him saying that he is on the way to Batu Pahat and meet my parents without me! I felt so warm after that because I believe that this guy is trying his best to be part of my life.

But then came this cold feeling where I am suppose to go to work! So i had to check the clock and I realized that I woke-up half an hour later than the usual! it's all because of that dream making me feel all comfortable on my bed!

p/s to those men who has their brain in the gutter! this is not a wet dream okay!

Have a good day~~ Below are the pictures of my niece trying to swim with the fish~~

This is Sarah standing next to the fish pond

This is Sarah trying to swim with the fish. My brother is trying to stop her and not encouraging her~~

Emptyness and Fullness

Btw the words I used in the title of this post do not exist in the dictionary. So, please do not re-use it in any proper sentences.

I want to tell a small tiny story about my life. I have dumped my boyfriend for almost 4 months now. So, for 4 months I do not have a shoulder to cry on every time when I'm lonely or sad. But for the last 3 months I have moved in with my family and I have my niece to keep me occupy, my sister in law that I can hangout with and my brother to lepak with.

Even so, somewhere deep inside my tiny heart that is filled with FAT there is a small whole that can't be filled.

I tried to fill it in before but it doesn't work! How on earth that I can't see that he cannot fill it in?? He's just too "skema" for me! Then, now I have no intention at all to find the replacement to fill this emptyness within me.

But...

These couple of days...

All of a sudden I feel like it is being filled. But the huge question is..

WHO ON EARTH FILLING IN THAT PARTICULAR SPOT???

HOW COME I MYSELF DON'T KNOW WHO IS THE PERSON???

so, to that particular guy.. I you feel like you have been filling in the emptyness in my heart please inform me... Because I don't know why I feel "bahagia" like I'm up in cloud 9~~

Not so straight!

I have encountered with some physically perfect guys recently. Most of them I might classify as HOT! but, in the end, when I observe the way they walk...ALAMAK! KANTOI! LENTIK!. This is a true story and if you don't believe me, try to check out those hot men you see in IKEA and any gym near you.

I have been discussing this matter with people around me and most of the time we are going to come to the conclusion where gay guys are HOT.

Anyway, there is a GIGANTIC but here!

I was googling on the Royal Malaysian Navy logo and this is the picture that I ends up with...

OOOKKKAAAYYY

this is just disgusting! This picture is being posted in a blog saying that they are gay. So, i ends up doing some research on them through lots of blog and I ends up with loads more images of both of them smooching around!

Luckily I did not find their naked pictures! Or else I'll be single for the rest of my LIFE!!!

Any how~~ the result of my little research come to the conclusion that there are ugly gay men out there! Below are more images of them smooching!!! Enjoy~~~~

Ayoo!!!

Owh man!

I think the fat one is the receiving end!

They even went for a holiday together!

I'am sorry if this post is annoying, no one force you to read it on the first place! :-P

The pictures posted above are from this blog:

http://www.noktahhitam.com/malaysian-gay-marine-tldm.html