Radio

Muahahah! tak de sebab nak post but nak jugak post sesuatu! Lately I selalu sgt emotional. Now i know the contributing reason.  Bukan sebab I dah tua but single, tapi the songs they play on the radio! To begin with is jar of hearts christina perri. Mmg menambah emo kalau dgr lagu ni time driving, buat rasa nak marah je kt lelaki-lelaki gatal yg buat perempuan ni mcm tissue paper. Dah pakai buang, kalau nak lagi ambil yg baru.

Then datang pulak lagu California King bed, to me the definition lagu ni mcm she's loosing grip on a guy yg dulu she own entirely. Mmg buat diri ini emo jugak kalau dgr while driving. Buat rasa marah je kt lelaki yg cuba nak slowly tinggalkan perempuan dgn perlahan-lahan creating a gap. Then "poof" never heard from him anymore

And then, don't let me get started with Adele's someone like u! My first boyfriend dump me kata sebab nak concentrate on study tapi sekali a couple of months after that ada girlfriend pulak! Memang Adele help me define the feeling I had at that moment!

The last but not least! I want to tell all men out there yg used me as a door mat then dump me just like that, please listen to every single words Beyonce says in Best thing I never had

The sad part is that the radio constantly playing these songs! I have to listen to them and I ends up being emotional and stressed. They relate so much to my life and I hate them for telling the truth. I just think men need to listen to every song I listed above and treat your women better! Love them and don't ever let them feel wht those songs are talking about because it hurts a lot!

Dear Bill Rancic............

Bill and Giuliana Rancic

I was trying to have a life and stay away from Facebook. So, I ends up watching some tv. The only interesting show on tv was Giuliana and Rancic. Then, there I was with a bottle of junk food sitting on the couch all by myself watching the show.

Half way through the show I realized that Bill Rancic is just the PERFECT MAN ALIVE!!!!

He is very caring and patient! Unlike certain man I have encountered with!

Most men cannot put up with women that have to concentrate with their job and not on their men! But Bill is just different! He is pissed sometimes, but he still constantly calling Giuliana even though she didn't picks up and he still flew half way round the world just to be with her! That is just AWSOME!!!

There were time in the show where he himself is suppose to be busy traveling but he still find some time to give Giuliana a call! He never gives up even though she didn't picks up the call.

As a 24 years old single woman, I was in cloud 9 watching the show by wishing somehow I will ends up having a rich, hot, and caring husband like that, who would put up with my shit.


In conclusion thanks to E channel for giving me a target in life. "Find a good looking, caring and rich husband". This is achievable because Sazzy Falak has found one. I believe the Malaysian version of Bill Rancic would be Nazril Nash Idrus. Their job are the same and they are good looking men with celebrity wife!


Any how, by 3/4 of the show I realized that most of it is just acting and it's not a true reality tv. Hence, I changed the channel for my sister in law and go to my room and write this post.

 

Raging hormones

I usually don't post on my blog that often, but thanks to my boss's suggestion, here I am writing another post even though the previous post was post ted 4 days ago.

I pun pelik kenapa I ikut je cakap dia! Dia suruh pakai tudung hitam hari ni pun i pakai lepas tu dia suruh I post bout the stress I am having pun i post! Nak mati Wani ni! Ape nak jadi ni Wani!

Tapi pedulikan semua itu! All I know I am very stressed! Bukan sebab bnyak kerje, moderate je workload, tapi tension! tak tau kenapa! Rasa stress and everyday pergi office rasa mcm mayat hidup, mcm tak ada daily achievement pun! Kenapa la Wani ni teruk sgt. I believe that this is just phase, I have been experiencing this "moody season" since the previous company. Once this season is over I will be back as productive as I usually am.

Being in this season is so hard! Stress 24/7 sampai jadi sleepless, asyik fikir pasal kerja walaupun sebenarnya tak de kerje pun, lepas tu yg paling leceh ialah kuat cemburu!

Benda merepek pun boleh cemburu. Tahap pathetic la perasaan cemburu ini sehnggakan colleagues keluar nak pergi dgr talk pun I boleh ingat diorg pergi makan tak ajak! Bodow kan! benda kecik pun boleh cemburu!

Anyway I know that this is just my raging hormone nak period kot. But the stress is giving me the headache. I really wish it will over soon, tak larat nak melayan perasaan sendiri......

Semakin tua semakin emo!

Di malam yg hening tatkala cuba utk memejamkan mata tiba2 teringatkan perasaan emo yg membuak didalam diri pagi tadi.

Punca emosi diri ini terganggu adalah kerana penat memandu selama 3 jam tanpa berhenti, seorang diri di pagi mulia hari raya yg ke 6. Setibanya di dalam kawasan Negeri Sembilan, tiba2 aku teringatkan ketidak adilan yg telah dilakukan kan oleh seseorg yg aku panggil "boss" terhadap diri ini beberapa bulan yg lalu. Aku menjadi marah hingga terasa mau "resign"!!

Ceritanya begini........

Semasuknya aku ke pejabat baru, aku telah mendapat seorg kawan yg juga memulakan hari pertamanya seperti aku dan bekerja dibawah boss yg sama seperti aku.

Tetapi dia merupakan anak emas kepada boss kerana paras rupa yg cantik. Dia mendapat segala kelebihan seperti mendapat kerja yg mudah2, dan juga berpeluang menghadiri semua meeting walaupun meeting itu berkenaan dgn sebut harga yg aku hasilkan.

Semasa dia ada, aku ada berasa cemburu, tetapi pada masa itu aku takut dgn perasaan cemburu itu kerana segan jika makna cemburu itu adalah kerana aku menyimpan perasaan kepada boss aku.

Beberapa bulan yg lalu dia meninggalkan kompeni itu. Setelah dia pergi, aku la org yg terpaksa menyambung kerja2 nya. Aku sgt marah hingga tanpa segan silu memaki di white board yg boleh di lihat oleh rakan sekerja kerana aku perlu menghabiskan kerja nya.

Pernah juga aku menghantar email yg menyakitkan hati kepada boss kerana tidak puas hati dgn keadaan aku yg perlu menghabiskan kerja org lain. Tapi aku tak rasa boss aku sedar akan perasaan marah ku itu. Dia hanya fikir aku ini mempunyai perasaan terhadapnya.

Nasib baiklah aku mempunyai seorg kawan yg ku kongsikan segala perasaan aku kepada nya dalam semua situasi. Aku meminta pandangannya tentang punca cemburu ku itu dan dia dapat melihat bahawa cemburu ku itu hanya berpunca dari ketidakadilan boss terhadapku walaupun pangkat aku dan perempuan itu sama tapi workload aku bnyak dan aku juga tidak dilayanan seperti dia!

Sewaktu outstation ke utara aku perlu memandu sendiri, tetapi ke selatan bersama perempuan itu dia bantunya memandu kereta tanpa complaint (meeting ini berkenaan quotation yg aku hasilkan dan perempuan itu tidak tahu apa2)! Dia mau ke sarawak membawa perempuan itu walaupun dia pernah menjanjikan bahawa SESCO adalah client aku....tetapi penghujungnya dia membawa aku atas pilihan kedua kerana perempuan itu sudah pun tender resignation.....

Begitulah tertekannya diriku sewaktu bekerja, tetapi aku pun tidak tahu kenapa aku boleh bertahan...

Dan sewaktu memandu seorang diri tadi, aku tertanya kenapa aku berdiam diri sahaja sewaktu aku diperlakukan seperti itu?

Suatu hari nanti aku kan meluah kan perasaan ini kepada boss aku, jika dia cuba utk membuli aku lagi kerana seorang perempuan yg dia minati, aku tidak akan teragak2 utk resign 24hours notice dan melaporkan ketidak adilan nya sewaktu exit interview. The only reason I am staying is because I love the nature of the work here and I worked in the previous company for a very short period, so I have to stay here for my reputation.