First time receiving a New Year's card!

I have never received any greetings card besides "kad raya" my entire life! Today, on the 20th of December 2011........I received a new year's greeting card!!!

It's kinda ugly and not interesting at all but since it's the first card I have ever received I kind of appreciate it.

Furthermore, this card has been sent from an extremely good looking man all the way from Switzerland! He's married though! Darn.........

But it's awsome tht he remembers me! I kind of felt guilty for not sending him any Christmas greetings card. Nevertheless, my father advised me to give him something during my visit to Switzerland........but tak tau nak kasi apa kt Mat Salleh tu ea?

Anyhow, something funny bout this card is that there is a greeting within the card in a language I don't even know what. Fortunately there's a translation underneath it. The thing is, when the greeting is in tht language, it is a very long speech....However, when it is translated in english..........tinggal one short line je.........pelik? Hurm.......

I am extremely happy to receive this card and I can't wait to receive any other greetings card from any of my principal from all over the world!

I wish that the real life is as easy as Facebook

Do you notice how facebook is making relationship between human being much more easier?

If you want to say "hi" to someone and not saying it, just poke them. You also do not have to actually hurt that person by actually poking them. Isn't that awsome??

Back then when you want to declare your relationship with your boyfriend or girlfriend, you must sit and talk to them and the boyfriend will actually propose and mentioned the word "will you be my girlfriend?". Then the girl would answer yes and this will happen face to face. Nowadays, with the help of facebook, just request for a change on your status, then if the girl accept it, your friends and her friend will know that both of you are in a relationship..........it's tht easy! If the girl decides to say "no", then she just have to reject it and she won't directly humiliate the guy........

Wanna know why am I talking bout facebook?

Well I have this friend that I really wish I can unfriend easily just by clicking an icon, just like in facebook.

Of course I can literally click unfriend on tht person name on facebook right now, but, the real life relationship will be ruined too. The thing is, it's not like I want to create an issue with that person or anything. I just wish I can unfriend that person and resume my life like that person had never existed. It's kinda mean, but I personally prefer it to be that way. I have tried the real life way by creating a gap, but then it created a speculation like I have some issue with that person when actually I don't.

I just think that I have been living my life for 24 years without that person and I want to continue it to be that way. I don't want anybody to come to me and say that I am mean or something. I am not!

I have never ended a friendship before, this is the first time I made a decision to end one. (Although someone had ended her relationship with me, but I was not the one who initiate the idea, so I still consider that this is the first time). This decision was not made as a punishment to anyone. I just think it's better this way.

I really wish that our life will resume like it used to be when we didn't know each other.

I don't want to hate tht person and tht person should not hate me too since we "don't know each other". I just want to act natural and still put on a smile when we walk pass by each other, but I don't want to spend time like we use to............

Life would be much easier if it's exactly like facebook........

Late night love song

I was driving back from work and I decided to tune in to Red fm for some late night love song.

As I was approaching my house, they played this song:

As I was listening to it, I was thinking that each and every single words from this song is so true.

We should never keep inside any kind of feeling we have towards a certain someone. I should've told him before he left.

For once, I thought that I might have gotten over him. This song remind me of him and the feeling I am having right now.

I bet this is the reason I have been very emotional lately....it's because "I miss everything about him"...

I can't look at him walking down the hall to his cubicle anymore..........no more curi2 tengok while hanging out at a friend's cubicle. Well, I have to move on........I really wish I don't have to find a new job again...... penat la tiap2 tahun pindah......... hurm.......

Cetusan hati dan dedikasi *ouch*

Hello! I am just seeking for advise...

These couple of days, I've been feeling empty. I have lost focus at work and I have been screwing up so bad. There are thing's I have under quoted thousands of ringgit.

To tell you the truth, I have lost my passion at work. Is this a sign?

I have worked in my previous company for 8 months and then I started looking for another job. Now, after six months here, I started to feel empty just like what I felt in the old company.

The last time I get bored, I decided to update my resume and pass it around. Then, I landed on my current job.

Like what I have repeatedly mentioned in the previous posts, even my current boss initially hesitated to hire me since he thinks that I have the potential to jump around so soon.

I've tried to convince him that I won't.

But this last couple of months, I been paying attention on emails sent by Lina from Jobstreet.

I feel bored with my current job and I think I have figured out that this is not what I want to be.

I used to be a proposal engineer in the previous company. Then I moved to this company thinking that I might be better off as a sales person because proposal engineer is so boring. Nevertheless, now I feel bored. I have realized that this is not what I want to be.

I can't figure out what I want in my life, but I am pretty sure I don't have any passion in what I am doing right now. I hate electrical subject since secondary school. But I am selling electrical stuff now. What is wrong with me???

I can't move to a new company again. It will ruin my resume altogether. What should I do now? Should I talk to my boss? I believe he has no intention of loosing me yet, because then, he will have to train the new people. But the thing is, I have no passion in my work anymore. I feel empty inside.

What if I go and have a long holiday? Will that help in a way? I don't know......

Can someone shed me some light and show me the right path?

Love-hate relationship

It's hard to have my boss as my best friend! Well hell yeah! I consider my boss as my best friend. He knows me so much to the extend of he knows me better than my parents.

Well,when he puts on his "boss" hat, I feel like nak picit dia sampai keluar tahi hijau! He's one of those annoying boss yg suruh i buat benda merepek mcm secretary and sometimes let me loose like a headless chicken to sort out big issue (to me it's big lah).

But when he puts on his best friend hat, we will have so much fun talking sampai sometimes i wish tak yah balik rumah, just lepak je dgn dia cerita sana sini. He understand me and from what ever he says about himself i think we are so alike.

Today he asked me to get a real boyfriend! He even allows me to do it during office hour...hehe...he puts it as while I am out doing sales I should meet ppl to get a boyfriend. Then i told him why I don't have one. It's because men are intimidated by my "over confident" attitude and my huge ego. Then he asked me to change lah my attitude. But I said I can't.

But when he used himself as an example, I can't help but agree that he has changed. This is based on a colleague's observation la...I pun tak tau dulu dia mcm mana.

Anyhow, he managed to make me think la...tapi mmg susah to change my attitude sbb I believe this is why he hires me at the first place.Tapi betul la wht my boss says, I need to think about my life and kene cari boyfriend and settle down someday. I have a good feeling about this sbb selalu nya apa dia cakap mesti I will automatically ikut...hoho...so I might change my attitude and try to be more girlish and loose the ego.

How to change myself pun I tak tau lagi.So, lama lagi la baru I dapat boyfriend. Hehe....

Radio

Muahahah! tak de sebab nak post but nak jugak post sesuatu! Lately I selalu sgt emotional. Now i know the contributing reason.  Bukan sebab I dah tua but single, tapi the songs they play on the radio! To begin with is jar of hearts christina perri. Mmg menambah emo kalau dgr lagu ni time driving, buat rasa nak marah je kt lelaki-lelaki gatal yg buat perempuan ni mcm tissue paper. Dah pakai buang, kalau nak lagi ambil yg baru.

Then datang pulak lagu California King bed, to me the definition lagu ni mcm she's loosing grip on a guy yg dulu she own entirely. Mmg buat diri ini emo jugak kalau dgr while driving. Buat rasa marah je kt lelaki yg cuba nak slowly tinggalkan perempuan dgn perlahan-lahan creating a gap. Then "poof" never heard from him anymore

And then, don't let me get started with Adele's someone like u! My first boyfriend dump me kata sebab nak concentrate on study tapi sekali a couple of months after that ada girlfriend pulak! Memang Adele help me define the feeling I had at that moment!

The last but not least! I want to tell all men out there yg used me as a door mat then dump me just like that, please listen to every single words Beyonce says in Best thing I never had

The sad part is that the radio constantly playing these songs! I have to listen to them and I ends up being emotional and stressed. They relate so much to my life and I hate them for telling the truth. I just think men need to listen to every song I listed above and treat your women better! Love them and don't ever let them feel wht those songs are talking about because it hurts a lot!

Dear Bill Rancic............

Bill and Giuliana Rancic

I was trying to have a life and stay away from Facebook. So, I ends up watching some tv. The only interesting show on tv was Giuliana and Rancic. Then, there I was with a bottle of junk food sitting on the couch all by myself watching the show.

Half way through the show I realized that Bill Rancic is just the PERFECT MAN ALIVE!!!!

He is very caring and patient! Unlike certain man I have encountered with!

Most men cannot put up with women that have to concentrate with their job and not on their men! But Bill is just different! He is pissed sometimes, but he still constantly calling Giuliana even though she didn't picks up and he still flew half way round the world just to be with her! That is just AWSOME!!!

There were time in the show where he himself is suppose to be busy traveling but he still find some time to give Giuliana a call! He never gives up even though she didn't picks up the call.

As a 24 years old single woman, I was in cloud 9 watching the show by wishing somehow I will ends up having a rich, hot, and caring husband like that, who would put up with my shit.


In conclusion thanks to E channel for giving me a target in life. "Find a good looking, caring and rich husband". This is achievable because Sazzy Falak has found one. I believe the Malaysian version of Bill Rancic would be Nazril Nash Idrus. Their job are the same and they are good looking men with celebrity wife!


Any how, by 3/4 of the show I realized that most of it is just acting and it's not a true reality tv. Hence, I changed the channel for my sister in law and go to my room and write this post.